Trigger warning: mention of anxiety, depression & suicidal thoughts
This guest feature has been written by Isabella, owner of Internalize Positivity on Instagram (which I love for its combination of feel-good quotes and content about body image, so make sure to visit it after reading her Free to Spiel story). Isabella talks about how gratitude has played an important part in helping her see through the darkness and visualize her future – find out more below:
I come from a struggle with depression and anxiety; it was very tough for me to even wake up in the morning or shower. It was exhausting and felt like a constant loop of pain and suffering where there was no end. I got to the point where I could not see myself in the near future and it all felt dark and cold.
A close person found out what I was going through and reminded me of the power of gratitude. Gratitude is the key to a more fulfilled and happy life, so I started writing a journal of things I am grateful for on a daily basis. Sometimes there was only one thing, but after some time I had a full list of things that I was grateful for, from the people around me to being alive!
One day I saw two people hugging in the middle of the street and realized how grateful I was to see that scene because it reminded me of the love all around me. It sounds cliché, but that is exactly what happened, and it was a turning point for me.
I started to appreciate and not take the little things for granted, but rather be grateful for what I have and be grateful for life itself. If someone would have told me things get better suddenly one day I would have laughed in my dark moment, but it really does.
I am still struggling, but for the first time in a long time I see a future for myself. I am learning to love myself and work on me. It does get better although it may not seem like it, I can promise you that. Just hold on a little longer because better days are coming! I never believed the people who would say these exact words but now I do because I experienced it.
We are all here for a reason and we should find that reason and live for it. Positivity is key and remember that after even the darkest night, the sun will come shining again.
Thank you Isabella for sharing your experience of anxiety, depression and the importance of gratitude with Free to Spiel! Readers are invited to connect with Isabella on Instagram (@internalizepositivity).
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